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Chapter 41 Apology
Afterwards, Lingbo and Jixia exchanged contact information within the Civil Defense Bureau's application and then left separately.
Ji Xia went to the corpse of the calamity beast to retrieve the source of magic power.
Lingbo found a secluded corner, deactivated her transformation, and reverted to her original form as Shen Zixin.
My body feels normal right now, but the pain of my soul being hurt still exists.
Although Ji Xia recommended some treatment options, it's best to ask Noah for advice in this situation; perhaps she has a better solution.
So, Shen Zixin sent Noah a message—
"Could you come to my house now? I have something important to tell you."
Noah had no problem and rushed back to meet Shen Zixin.
Once in her bedroom, Shen Zixin recounted everything that had happened on the university campus that morning—from encountering the monster to being defeated, to the magical girl Ji Xia saving the day, and even her interview.
Shen Zixin thought that Noah would comfort her or tease him a little. However, none of these expected things happened; instead, Noah suddenly erupted in anger—
"Can't you read, or is there something wrong with your brain?! Damn it! Are you looking for trouble?! Why are you looking for trouble? Before you worry about the lives of those irrelevant people, can't you take care of your own life first?! Huh?!"
He immediately launched into a tirade of abuse.
However, rather than saying Noah was angry, it was more like a roar mixed with worry and indignation.
Shen Zixin was somewhat stunned by the sudden outburst. He lowered his head slightly, intending to defend himself: "Those...they are all classmates from school, I can't just stand by and watch them die in front of me, can I?"
"Heh, classmate?" Noah gave an unusually cold laugh. "To be blunt, is the life of an ordinary person more important than the life of a magical girl?"
Shen Zixin frowned: "...Hey, you can't just say things like that."
In a sense, this has crossed Shen Zixin's basic moral bottom line.
"That's why I'm only talking to you privately." Noah put her hands on her hips. "Finally, as an important magical girl, it would be ridiculous for me to die in such a random place. Don't take slogans about protecting humanity and safeguarding the world too seriously. Your priority should be your own safety, understand?"
These words, which were somewhat "rebellious" for the identity of a magical girl, made Shen Zixin feel a little ashamed.
Besides, didn't Noah have the goal of "saving the world"?
Would someone with the goal of "saving the world" really say such a thing?
At one point, Shen Zixin even began to doubt whether Noah was really "her future self"—the difference between her and Noah's values was too great.
Noah... what she's been through is indeed hard to imagine.
"Alright, that statement might have been too harsh. Let me put it another way—think about your own abilities before you try to save someone."
"You were just lucky this time, which gave you the illusion that 'ah, I saved a lot of people.' Under normal circumstances, the result of your actions would only be that you wouldn't save a single person, and in the end, you'd lose your own life as well."
Shen Zixin couldn't refute it. Indeed, if Ji Xia hadn't saved the day, his fate would probably have been just as Noah had said: not only would he have failed to save anyone, but he would have also died on the spot.
This argument is indeed more convincing and easier to accept than the previous one, which states that "magical girls' lives are more valuable."
"In the end," Noah's tone softened slightly, but the coldness remained, "this kind of reckless behavior isn't some bullshit 'bravery,' it's pure 'recklessness.' That guy Ji Xia is also out of his mind; I really don't know what's so praiseworthy about this kind of nonsense."
Shen Zixin suddenly realized something: "You know Ji Xia?"
After saying this, Shen Zixin herself felt that she had asked a very stupid question.
As a veteran magical girl who has been active in Moonflower City for several years, Ji Xia's reputation has already spread through the news media. She had heard of her before becoming a magical girl herself, so it was only natural that Noah knew her too.
"It's not just about knowing each other." Noah paused. "Do you remember what I told you about my timeline?"
"In my timeline, it was the night I just awakened as a magical girl, and then He Yuran, Xiaoling, Ye Han, and I all collapsed together. Didn't I say that another magical girl arrived in the end and saved us?"
Shen Zixin nodded. Of course he remembered that.
Noah gave a wry smile: "That magical girl is Ji Xia."
"ah……?"
Shen Zixin was stunned.
In other words, Ji Xia not only saved him in his timeline, but also saved his life in another timeline.
What a coincidence!
"Forget it, there's no point in saying all that nonsense," Noah took a deep breath, seemingly trying to suppress all her emotions. "In short, never do anything like this again. And—"
Her voice suddenly lowered before she slowly began to speak:
"--sorry."
A sudden apology.
Shen Zixin was confused by the sudden apology: "Huh? Why...why are you apologizing?"
"I had no idea you would encounter such danger. It was my negligence that I overlooked your safety."
Noah's voice was filled with self-reproach, "I have no recollection of the monster attack on the university campus today. So, I never considered that you would be in danger because of it."
"It's probably because the 'butterfly effect' brought about by my time travel has already changed the future too much."
"No, no, no, how can this be your fault?" Shen Zixin immediately retorted, trying to lessen her guilt—or rather, it was too much to put the blame on Noah. "In the end, this is trouble I brought on myself."
"If you really... still care about the people around you," Noah's voice lowered again, her deep red eyes fixed on him—
That was a vulnerability that Shen Zixin had never seen before, almost like a plea.
"Then please... value your own life and don't do this kind of thing again. I... don't want to experience loss again..."